#89 Then And Now

Inside Out - Von Ray

I don't believe all the things I hear.
All these things I hold so dear,
I won't take for granted.
I'd always thought that you'd be there.
Now it somehow seems unfair.
You're asking me to take it.

Do you see the danger creeping up beside?

'Cause you're turning me inside out,
You're breaking all these promises we made.
Maybe time will make it right.

Our picture taken yesterday,
Slowly starts to fade away,
There's got to be an answer.
There's no use being afraid to see,
What my life was meant to be,
And take me so much higher.

Do you see the danger its creeping up behind?

'Cause you're turning me inside out,
You're breaking all these promises we made.
Maybe time will make it right.
'Cause, you're turning me inside out.
It's taking all my strength and will to stay.
Maybe time will make it right.

And do you feel the danger its creeping up beside?

'Cause you're turning me inside out,
You're breaking all these promises

You're breaking all these promises

'Cause you're turning me inside out,
You're breaking all these promises we made.
Maybe time will make it right.
'Cause you're turning me inside out.
It's taking all my strength and will to stay.
Maybe time will make it right.


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I originally planned to blog all about the thoughts that came to my mind since Saturday;

Thoughts about being merely an existence and not a life.

You get the gist.

Since sometime last year, Saturday became the day when my guilt (and regret) catches up with me and pummels my conscience to pieces.

Yesterday was nothing different.

But I guess I won't bother about the details.

I honestly can't be bothered about much more.

Making people unhappy makes me feel unhappy, but it seems to have become that which I am proficient at lately.

Only this time, sorry isn't going to help.

Sorry mom, I've been a bad boy.

I.

Can't.

Help.

It.

My life. Or lack of it.


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Everything - Lifehouse

Find me here and speak to me.
I want to feel You I need to hear You.
You are the Light that's leading me.
To the place where I find peace,
Again.

You are the strength that keeps me walking.
You are the hope that keeps me trusting.
You are the Light to my soul.
You are my purpose, You're everything.

And how can I stand here with You and not be moved by You?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms and You give me rest.
You hold me in Your hands, You won't let me fall.
You steal my heart and You take my breath away.
Would you take me in, take me deeper now.

And how can I stand here with You and not be moved by You?
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this?

And how can I stand here with You and not be moved by You?
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need,
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want, You're all I need,
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want. You're all I need,
.You're everything, everything.
You're all I want, You're all I need,
you're everything, everything.

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better,
Any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?