Slept at 11pm plus yesterday night. After a particularly fitful sleep, I got up at 4.30am and waited the agonising span of time to my FYP presentation/oral defense. The time finally came and I got less than what I deserved (I deserved a good berating and a red mark on my score sheet). And so the FYP presentation consisted mostly of 3 hours of minesweeper games while constantly reminding Jerrome of my lack of confidence and extreme fear.
Then everything seemed to pass as soon as it started.
Relieved (though we knew we had a low chance of passing) at the summation of the ordeal (FYP), we got brunch, took a train to my house and started "destressing" (i.e. playing games).
Soon after, Jerrome left and my family and I headed down for a dinner with Dad's friends and their families.
We're not exactly extremely close, but because of the strong bond between our fathers, we kind of gelled together, the guys. And for the first time (I recall), Sylvia (one of the uncle's daughter) joined us for our regular guys' boardgame meet-ups.
In a dramatic turn of events; my usual good luck streak took a roundabout turn; I was routed in every single Citadel game (two games which lasted like forever).
The first match I was but one building to victory when everyone started to gang up on me. Wilson got the win for that one.
The second match I got assassinated the first round and had my gold stolen the two rounds after. Two rounds later I had my gold stolen yet again. Don't need to guess what happened at the end.
After that it was time to head home.
Time flies; the first time we met was at least a decade ago. Ten years on, we're still friends. I wonder what will happen in the year ahead.
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Friday, August 1, 2008
#115 Psst!
*Whisper whisper*
I'm super afraid of what happens tomorrow!
Because of that, I'm going to sleep early, wake early, prepare myself.
Good luck to me!
*Insert well-wish to self*
Either way tomorrow's not going to wait for me so, ja!
Wake up fever!
I'm super afraid of what happens tomorrow!
Because of that, I'm going to sleep early, wake early, prepare myself.
Good luck to me!
*Insert well-wish to self*
Either way tomorrow's not going to wait for me so, ja!
Wake up fever!
Thursday, July 31, 2008
#114 Possibly...
...The stupidest game encounter I've ever come across.
From: system (2008-07-31 09:59:57)
Shirley was captured by soldiers and forced to be a mess hall cook.In the middle of the night, she snuck out with a mother pig in hand, and scurried back. she obtainined 2467 in food.
I almost fell over my chair when I read it. But that's what's interesting about browser-games, I've come to realise.
It puts a smile to your face at times when you least expect it.
It's like Indie VS Hollywood. You don't get perfect but you get moments of genius.
Why do they look at me like I could be of worth? I'm just me.
From: system (2008-07-31 09:59:57)
Shirley was captured by soldiers and forced to be a mess hall cook.In the middle of the night, she snuck out with a mother pig in hand, and scurried back. she obtainined 2467 in food.
I almost fell over my chair when I read it. But that's what's interesting about browser-games, I've come to realise.
It puts a smile to your face at times when you least expect it.
It's like Indie VS Hollywood. You don't get perfect but you get moments of genius.
Why do they look at me like I could be of worth? I'm just me.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
#113 I've Come To Realise
I am human. Okay maybe I haven't just found out. But I'm talking about the allegorical. Human weakness is all around.
And then I realise that throughout my life I've been giving up power in exchange for status quo.
I start to want the things that others have gotten (once again, not literal); worldly possessions and so on and so forth.
I want to see true success once again, not the success that blinds us to our spiritual poverty.
Once again, I am as sane as another.
In times of insanity, I dream of something greater.
To understand, think lateral. Life is non sequitur. We are three...no, five (or more) dimensional.
Let us not act like two-dimensional beings.
And then I realise that throughout my life I've been giving up power in exchange for status quo.
I start to want the things that others have gotten (once again, not literal); worldly possessions and so on and so forth.
I want to see true success once again, not the success that blinds us to our spiritual poverty.
Once again, I am as sane as another.
In times of insanity, I dream of something greater.
To understand, think lateral. Life is non sequitur. We are three...no, five (or more) dimensional.
Let us not act like two-dimensional beings.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
#112 FAIL!
I just thought of a few jokes and I think they really fail.
Then again, no one ever laughs at my jokes. They only laugh because I am telling them. =x
Okay here goes nothing (>_<)"! :
1. My life is a comic. It's non-sequitur.
2. A: Why so serious? B: Why so stupid?
I wonder how many people I have killed with my complete lack of humour. *zips mouth*
No wonder Jit Min says people laugh at me. =P
Bah! I miss those days in Year 1 when I wore undersized t-shirts, cut hairstyles that would top the "Most Disastrous Hairdo Ever" any day and lunched with a brother who would hit his head with a water bottle whenever he made a mistake.
echo "I'm not talking about you, Jerrome."
//Said in low-pitched Heng-Yu-like voice.
I wish I could add wearing velcro strapped shoes to that list without lying. =X
Then again, no one ever laughs at my jokes. They only laugh because I am telling them. =x
Okay here goes nothing (>_<)"! :
1. My life is a comic. It's non-sequitur.
2. A: Why so serious? B: Why so stupid?
I wonder how many people I have killed with my complete lack of humour. *zips mouth*
No wonder Jit Min says people laugh at me. =P
Bah! I miss those days in Year 1 when I wore undersized t-shirts, cut hairstyles that would top the "Most Disastrous Hairdo Ever" any day and lunched with a brother who would hit his head with a water bottle whenever he made a mistake.
echo "I'm not talking about you, Jerrome."
//Said in low-pitched Heng-Yu-like voice.
I wish I could add wearing velcro strapped shoes to that list without lying. =X
Monday, July 28, 2008
#111 In The Aftermath
Sounds bad right? The title I mean.
*Insert negative thoughts*
Nah, just kidding.
Just a little update; I finished my FYP and submitted it. To be honest, even getting a D grade is difficult. But hey, I'm liking what I read (story-wise) and it's a real good experience learning a programming language from scratch, self-motivated.
Up next is my Professional Profile evaluation; just thinking about it gives me the jitters. I haven't had a good night's sleep for weeks now; I still won't until Wednesday is over.
In any case I caught up with Arch @ Mark (my cabal buddy), over the phone and then through msn. I kind of just went to random read his blog and realised something. We've been through at least similar circumstances, though I believe he's been through worse. And from what I see now (though we are not that close and don't really hang out so much), he's stronger than before his problems.
I really should be too, so I'm striving for that, in the midst of my lack of self-confidence and motivation.
If I don't try I'll always regret.
On the lighter side of things, it seems I've kind of lost interest (most probably temporarily) with my games. I go in and try to play two games and end up leaving my keyboard for most of the time in the second game.
It's possibly signifying that my priorities have shift, possibly.
I sure do hope so.
*Insert negative thoughts*
Nah, just kidding.
Just a little update; I finished my FYP and submitted it. To be honest, even getting a D grade is difficult. But hey, I'm liking what I read (story-wise) and it's a real good experience learning a programming language from scratch, self-motivated.
Up next is my Professional Profile evaluation; just thinking about it gives me the jitters. I haven't had a good night's sleep for weeks now; I still won't until Wednesday is over.
In any case I caught up with Arch @ Mark (my cabal buddy), over the phone and then through msn. I kind of just went to random read his blog and realised something. We've been through at least similar circumstances, though I believe he's been through worse. And from what I see now (though we are not that close and don't really hang out so much), he's stronger than before his problems.
I really should be too, so I'm striving for that, in the midst of my lack of self-confidence and motivation.
If I don't try I'll always regret.
On the lighter side of things, it seems I've kind of lost interest (most probably temporarily) with my games. I go in and try to play two games and end up leaving my keyboard for most of the time in the second game.
It's possibly signifying that my priorities have shift, possibly.
I sure do hope so.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
#110 I Have...
Repeated the same mistakes I made a year ago about 4 times now.
Realised my "giving up" would never work. Reality is such that it slaps you out of your stupidity...in time.
There's no such thing as a fairytale ending. But there is also no such thing as an irrevocable end. Or at least I haven't experienced that.
My codes continue to screw me over while my life, my reminiscence and reflection continually bring me full circle.
And I realise I'm standing back at square one.
It's not all bad though; at least I realised what I have missed out. Life; lot's of it.
This is my 2nd day staying over at Jason's (sec school mate if you guys were wondering) house. If you skip the 2 days of rest I've had in between sleep overs, I have clocked at least 1 1/2 weeks out of 2 weeks (I think, because my brain doesn't work so well) away from my own bed.
So to cheer myself up I'll say this:
It's do or die!
Realised my "giving up" would never work. Reality is such that it slaps you out of your stupidity...in time.
There's no such thing as a fairytale ending. But there is also no such thing as an irrevocable end. Or at least I haven't experienced that.
My codes continue to screw me over while my life, my reminiscence and reflection continually bring me full circle.
And I realise I'm standing back at square one.
It's not all bad though; at least I realised what I have missed out. Life; lot's of it.
This is my 2nd day staying over at Jason's (sec school mate if you guys were wondering) house. If you skip the 2 days of rest I've had in between sleep overs, I have clocked at least 1 1/2 weeks out of 2 weeks (I think, because my brain doesn't work so well) away from my own bed.
So to cheer myself up I'll say this:
It's do or die!
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