#109 Dear Family

I'd be letting you all down if I were to give up at this moment. And yet I so feel like giving up, because of the amazing odds stacked against me.

Learning a programming language from scratch.

Putting it into actual practice for a game my future depends on.

Wasting yet another few thousands of our family's money.

Causing Dad and Mom to worry.

I've realised it too late.

I never could run away from the world.

And now as I sit here, I realised I've gained so much more.

But at what cost?

My mind must have been way dense to not learn it the time when Granny passed away; a life lost, at what cost?

I honestly don't deserve anything I have right now.

My conclusion? Never give up, if only for the lost cost.

*Edit* If you think today is your last, how would you live it?

My mind's hurting, conscience's grieving, muscle's aching and breathing's shallow but somehow I'm living as if tomorrow might be a better day.

Please let it come to pass, if only for what I may have become.